Becoming a mother of two has been quite the adjustment and whirlwind. The first month has flown by with all the crazy happenings of our little family, and now that we aren't traveling, aren't entertaining others, my bee stings almost healed and life is just us it has hit me that I have two kids!!! I have such a great respect for mothers, with each child I think that respect just grows and grows! The amount of energy it takes to take care of a newborn is astounding and then add a teething and very active toddler to the mix and it's exhausting. My days seem to just mesh into one another with spit up, nursing, diaper changing, laundry, dishes, entertaining and running after baby girl, making meals, reading books, wiping boogers...and all else that comes with motherhood. There are moments where I feel I am the worst qualified, or times I want to quit, or run away for a week long vacation with free massages. But then I realize this is the best job I could've asked for and the greatest dream come true.
I AM a mother of two and I love it! I may not look sane (ever), I don't look put together hardly ever, I don't have a perfectly clean and organized home, paper plates have been my friend, and I don't have all my ducks in a row. However, I have a little family that I care for every day and that I love endlessly. They are my world. When you look at the endless lists of don'ts as a mother you realize you're doing lots of do's. I do read to my children every day, I make sure my family is fed, I keep a home running, I take the time to thank others sincerely, I make sure family prayer is said...these are the things that matter most.
I have felt pretty inadequate up to this point at knowing how on earth I'd keep up with these two active kiddos and then today had a tender moment. I took the kids outside and after I nursed William I laid him down on the blanket and started blowing bubbles with Jane. In this sweet tender moment there was a great peace that came over me. The thought of "This is so fun. You are a good mom." and "These two love you and each other!" came into my mind. It was the first time I really felt like "YES, you can do this!" The first time my confidence rose to the challenge and joy of my life right now.
We all have changes in our lives, hardships we must face, and roads we must travel. How we think, act and live them out makes a big difference in how life turns out. I'm grateful, so grateful, for my little outdoor moment of joy today. It reminded me of the happiness I have and the capabilities I am blessed with. I love being a mother and am grateful for all it has me do. Each day is long, and each day is a blessing! Long live happy motherhood!
